Tuesday, 10 July 2012

Beauty Love - Chapter 29 - I’m Kian

Rating : K+
Genre    : Friendship, Family Drama
Warning :  Orphan, Emotionaly wrecked ---- tissueeee
Lads      :  Kian, Mark, Shane, Bryan, Nicky 
Summary : Both Kian and Mark , 11 yrs old, are an orphan at St. Peter Orphan House for Boys. They grew up together and happily, they were loved by all sisters and father, but they are still want to feel having a real family which mean having mother, father, and brother. Would they have that too ? 
 
 
 
Chapter 29
I’m Kian


Adeline stood before her mirror, and looked at her own reflection. She couldn’t deny, she looked so beautiful with this dress. Even without her make up she had looked beautiful. She never thought she would be this beautiful and such a lady. But this was all lie. And she couldn’t hold this much longer, or she was going insane.
Adeline looked to the door, ensuring she had locked the door and no one will interrupt her. Even she was in her own private castle, she had to be sure no one would notice. This gonna be her secret alive … for now.
Adeline took her deep breath, and started to take off her hair and fell to her smooth shoulder. And turned to her gown, and took it off. Then her chemise of lace, till no one left.
She looked her naked body without fake breast. This was what she really looked.
She turned to the man clothes set on t he bed. No one ever knew she bought those clothes, not even Shane. She felt nervous and her heart thudded. That was what she had to wear.
She started it with wearing Mark’s talisman, then slowly took the clothes and wore them with the heart beat fast. This was her first time she wear this again.
She put the last item, and looked herself at the mirror. She took a deep breath. She didn’t see any Adeline on it. No, she wasn’t Adeline, he was Kian. He had come back.
Kian looked his self.  He let his long blond hair fell to his shoulder as he couldn’t cut it. Well, he didn’t look bad. He smiled satisfied. This was how he had to look and wear. He felt some relieveness. Kian had back.
Kian had waiting for this feeling and this moment. He took his breath, and carefully sneaked out from his room by the window. It was quite big to get him through and he was quite slim to pass it.

He walked out his gate with heart beating, so feared some one would recognize him. And as he successfully with no one recognize him, he sighed full of relieve, and smiled widely. He felt like the first he stepped out from St. Peters gate 6 years ago. Free!!!!

With took a deep breath, he took his first step being a man again. And honest, it felt strange he walked alone not have Shane with him, as he always accompany him wherever he went. No, Shane was Adeline’s guard not Kian’s. He didn’t need Shane, and he shouldn’t know about Kian.

He knew what the first he should do when he came back as a man. And he couldn’t hold his nervous as looking the big gate before him. The Kiane gate he left 6 years ago, the Kiane gate he had to jump out in the middle of the night, and the Kiane gate he had to lose Mark. It felt funny, he came back as Kian, not Adeline. He couldn’t came back here as Adeline. His father forbidden her to came again after that tragic night. And now was the time he came back not as Adeline but as Kian.
                                       
     “Edward!” a women’s hand grabbed hand as he went inside, jumped him. Didn’t really know what happened, but the women starred him with strange eyes.
     “Edward, is that you?” with her curious eyes.
Kian’s heart beat so fast with the shock, but he tried to calm and gave her smile, “Excuse me ma’am… you probably mistaken…,” it’s very polite not attend to hurt her feeling. “I’m not Edward…”
And her face fell. She observed him once again, and realized he’s not what she was thinking.
     “Oh, excuse me..,” she apologized right away with the disappointed face.
Kian just gave her a smile with nodded, and watched her moved away from him. Kian kept watching her, and she was not move very far. She turned her attention to St. Peter, and starred it with her sad eyes. She grabbed the bar gate and stayed there.
Kian looked at her with pity. ‘Did she give her baby here, and wishing to have him back?’ Kian’s heart beat even faster with the thought. ‘Could be she was mother? And she wants to see him’
‘Right, no dreaming, Kian… no one ever wants you. They left you coz they are not wanting you, so don’t even dream they would come for you.’ Kian eased the thought. ‘What a high expectation? Too high… Kian…, you couldn’t have it.’
The woman sensed she was being watched. She gave a nerve look like being caught, then leaved.
Kian couldn’t get her eyes away from there. She looked so sense and sad, like carrying her misery, of course she lost her baby, and wished to have back, but who knows her baby still there? He could have been adopted.
Kian still looked at her, till she lost from his sight, ‘Hope you can find you baby, ma’am…’ he really prayed for her, as he prayed for himself to find his biological parents.
He turned back to the gate, and smiled. He took a very deep breath and walked in. And with the full nervous he knocked the door.

He had to hold his breath as the door opened with the familiar face he hadn’t meet for 5 years welcoming him with her warm face. Hope he didn’t scare her with he looks now, a man with long hair to his back.
     “Yes, Sir, can I help you?” with her gently face and voice.
Kian almost burst in tears. It was still her, even a little bit older.
     “Sister Anne… it’s me…,” his heart almost blow up in excitement.
Sister Anne froze, and looked his face carefully, then she even froze.
     “Lord Heaven. S…Kian…?” almost couldn’t believe her eyes.
Kian smiled, “Yes, Sister it’s me.”
     “Oh, My Lord, Kian!?” she exclaimed happily, never thought she would meet this person again as he had changed to another person. But yet, he was still looks beautiful, with his curl long blond hair!
    “Come, please… come, son,” she couldn’t hold her happiness.
Kian stepped in, and looked his around. Everything was still the Kiane. She took him to the office room.

    “But how come, you …?” Sister Anne asked with curiosity. “I heard your coronation as A Lady by The Queen, Kian, you impressed the Queen, Kian, and yes you are look so beautiful.”
Kian had to blush. “But it’s all a lie, Sister, you know that.”
Sister Anne had to nod. “So, you have decided to …?”
    “No.. Sister,” he cut her with smile as he knew where her questions lead to. “I’m still Adeline, Sister. But I need to have my real identity come out, so I wouldn’t live in a lie and regretted my whole life not being a proper male. I need it, Sister, to keep my balance as God Human.”
Sister Anne nodded, “Yes, I understand, my child. But did they know, your family, your father?”
Kian had to shake his head, “No, Sister, no one knows yet, and I’m afraid I had to keep it myself. I can’t let them know just to disappointed them,” even Shane. “And this is my debutant as Kian back, Sister, my first day!” he said proudly.
Sister Anne smiled.
   “How do I look, Sister? Do I still look like Adeline?”
Sister Anne had to smile amazingly. “No, Kian, you had differently from Lady Adeline, but yes, you have the Kiane beauty, even with your long hair, Kian,” she teased him.
Kian touched his hair with a smiled, “This for another identity, sister.”
Sister Anne little laughed, “Yes. You have grown up to a such a beautiful man, Kian. I always wondered what you will look like when you had grown up as a man, and I almost disappointed that I couldn’t as you had became a girl.”
    “But you had seen me now, Sister, I’m back as Kian!” he said with proudly.
Sister Anne had to smile proudly. “And how do you feel about this?”
    “It’s great, Sister, I couldn’t lie, it feels so great to have the real of me, not have to lie.”
Sister Anne nodded, “Yes, Kian, I understand.”
Kian nodded. “And the best thing in my life being Kian is I could come here as much as I could!” he exclaimed happily.
Sister Anne had to laugh. “Yes, Kian, you could. Wish Sister Theresa still here, she must be delight to see you again, Kian,” with her sad face.
Kian’s face fell. Yes, he heard, Sister Theresa had passed away form heart attack.
     “May she rest in peace,” Kian crossed his self for a pray.
Kian took his deep breath and felt relax.
    “Where’s the boys, Sister?”
    “Ow, they are in relaxing room with Father Simon.”
    “For music time?” Kian grinned.
    “Yes, as you knew that, Kian,”
Kian even smiled, and with no word he had run to the relaxing room to meet Father Simon was  teaching some music lesson.
Kian smiled with the sight of he boys. Some singing and some play music. It really took him back to when he was child… with Mark.
His heart stopped with the memory.
     “Sister, had Mark came again?” with a little hope.
     “No, love, he never came again. That day, it was his last time he came here.”
Kian swallowed his disappointed. Mark did never come again. He didn’t come for him again. Mark had really leaved him.
    “Love, why don’t you play with them?” she offered him for changing the subject.
    “Well, my pleasure…” he smiled wide.
Sister Anne smiled, “Father Simon!”
Father Simon couldn’t hide his shock and surprise seeing him again, but yes he knew why he would done that, and he was quiet glad, Kian still remember who the real he was. And Father Simon even glad as Kian would joining the music lesson with the boys as he knew Kian’s music skill had impressed the Queen. Father Simon felt the glad, there was nothing wrong with Kian. He was such a great and nice boy. It was only such luck and destiny, Kian had to live like this.

Kian really spent a great time at St. Peter, he almost didn’t wanna go home, but he promised he would come again for the boys. That made Father Simon and Sister Anne even glad as they didn’t really lost Kian. They still have a real Kian.

Kian couldn’t describe how thrilled he was when he could come back to his room with unnoticed and changed his clothes back to Adeline. Kian could only smile in gladness and excited as started he could live in both identities, as Adeline and as Kian himself. He was only prayed his new identity would never discovered.


TBC


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